Wah?

It's been a while, I know I know. I'm sorry. I've just been really busy and really haven't had anything interesting to write about. But instead of some hilarious story or my love for somebody I've got more of a question or a query or a statement...or something. I don't know.


As a kid I always tried my hardest to be cool, with the in-crowd, that whole shebang. Like 80% of us as kids. I've grown out of that. It took me a log time to do so but now I enjoy the things I enjoy without shame. I have welcomed the label geek into my life and have proudly worn it because I admire others who call themselves self professed nerds.

But what does it really take to be a nerd? a geek? I feel like now to be part of that culture you have to know your stuff, you have to be knowledgeable of the geekdom. Depending on your subculture: movie-nerd, gamer, comic book nerd and so forth. You have to know your area of obsession because if you haven't studied every single freekin detail you really aren't a nerd or a geek or a loser and so forth.  You're secluded from the world you thought would be welcoming you with open arms. Now it's just like being part of any other clique. When did being a loser become cool?

                                        Was it around this time? Because this does't happen.

Why is it that you can't even be yourself in a culture that was once thought of as the ultimate place to do that. To read the books others thought were lame or childish in comfort, or to play video games without being called a n00b or some such thing.

So now I don't even know what to say about myself, other than I'm me. I was excited to be called a geek, before I realized you needed a lot of damn research to be one. I am not going to spend that much money on graphic novels so I can say I have read every single Batman or Frank Miller or Justice league. I don't even like it all! Why am I obligated to like every single bit or at least know every excruciating detail of X-Men or the Green Lantern? I read and watch things because I enjoy, not so I can  recite the exact time-line and history of Bruce Wayne. If I learn all there is about Harry Potter, that's because I spent the time enjoying the books, not because I needed to know it to impress comic-conners or intense dresser uppers or some shit.

                                          Heres's some cats, because really, why not?

What I'm saying is, I have about as much motivation of trying to be in with the jocks or the cool kids as I have trying to be in with the geeks and the nerds.

If there is a Sheldon or a Leonard out there...to be honest..I don't want to meet them. Or be them.